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1:24 PM June 09, 2004

The first ordinary day in a very extraordinary week. That's today, June 9, birthday ni Lei, birthday ng mommy ni Stacy, birthday ko din. I woke up at 10:30, checked my celphone, stood up and checked the breakfast, decided i wanted an omelette with the spam on the table, cooked the egg, ate it, went to the computer, recieved a phone call, blogged. Nothing special. :D I already miss boring summer days...

And here is the extraordinary part of the week, although i pressume that this will soon BE the ordinary...
First up, Monday:
First day of school, had a freshmen orientation where we met lots of groups, the chancellors, deans, etc. (There was a group, the UP Singing Ambassadors, that caught my attention. They've won the grand prize in some Italian concert, as well as several other awards in Germany, Czecs (?) etc. So you can actually go around the world doing those stuff huh? Anyway, if Stacy were in UP, I'd have forced Vigile and her to sing 'When You wish upon a star' for then in the auditions. That would surely get then in. Provided it doesn't have to be recorded on tape. ^_^")

Next we were given and assigned blocks for the first time. there were about 45-50 of us. *sobs* But luckily, were were divided into 2. (Grabe, halos lahat kami ng block BAA. At lahat ng upper classmen BAA din. Tapos ung mga konting BA naman, pinipilit nila mag-shift kasi mas masaya daw at lahat. Grabe, marami sila. May isang buong org nga na para lang sa kanila, eh.) Anyway, there were no classes but lots of annoying get-to-know-each-other-stuff. I hate myself sometimes. At the end of the day, everyone was friends with someone except me. I was THE Loner of the block, the only person who stood away from the rest and just watched them talk to each other. *gasp* I'm Axyll! I felt like a tiny stone in the middle of a very dense wilderness and everyone else were trees all moving up (forward) and following the general sway of the wind. I, on the otherhand, was stuck on the ground, unmoving, and unable to reach anything. I'm pathetic. That's why when Stacy called that evening, I was glad to be reminded that I stll had good friends. Like Vigile, Sig, Stacy, Tracy, Kimmy, Selda, Mia... I'm starting to miss them. And the table. And the happy lunches we had when we could talk to anyone of us there. Now, we have to make arrangements before we can actually see each other, except Vigile and I don't really make arrangements for visiting sig... ^_^ So convienent. Actually, this week, I've shocked Sig's mom twice by coming in at the most unexpected time. On Monday, I just stepped in at 8 in the morning, much to the shock of her mom. Sig actually had to wash her face before seeing me, cause she was sleeping then, i think. Her celphone was magically texting me on its own. Lucky Sig. :) The second time was yesteday, vigile and I decided to walk from UP to Sig's house. Long trek. We then entered her house and sat on her couch, rather weary, then Sig's mom saw us and got surprised that we just appeared out of nowhere. Sig was even creeped out that we walked all the way to see her, not that i think she believed us. Although we really did walk. Good exercise. I was telling vigile while walking that i'd probably get thin if we do this more often... But if we do it more often, sig might probably kick us out already. ^_^

Anyway, Tuesday was the first day of classes. We had Math 17 (a very hard class apparently, the teacher had a great time scaring us, i could tell. >.<) Imagine my joy when I stepped in and found Bong Oyales in my class. Yay~! She was the only one i really talked to cause she was the only one i knew. What a coincidence. For certain reasons, I consider Ck, Bong and I a lesser trio in my life. Why? Cause we were the only 3 II-9 math A people to get exempted in bio, get included in III-8, and now, get into UP. Next, i had Social Science 1, and our teacher, a PhD, was in the US. No classes for us that day or on friday. Next was Arnis, and the teacher did not show up either. So from the Vanguard rooftop (somewhere near the ROTC field) we walked all the was to Sig's house. At the end of the day, I was so tired that I wanted to retire at 8 o'clock or earlier, but because of my insomnia, i ended up sleeping a 12:30. I was so tired. TnT Luckily, we have no classes on Wednesday, or else, i'll probably get sick. (PS. Someone really annoying texted me last night. Amidst all the birthday greetings, an anonymous texter sent me a disgusting swear message. Some people have nothing better to do in life than bother other people. >,< Buti nalang may mga mabait na text from friends like Kimmy and Vigile, kundi maaasar talaga ako.)

YOu know what, another reason why i hate myself is this: On the Get-to-know-you gathering, we were given free food and drinks and i was quietly sitting besides some other girls on the floor cause there was no isolated spot anymore. There were street children lingering around and asking food from the BAA seniors who were distributing food. I felt pity for them cause there was a lot of excess food and they were being ignored. (I even thought that if I were a senior and there was excess food, i'd give them.) Eventually, they decided to go around and ask people for their food instead. One went to me and asked for my coke. I didn't know what to do or say so i said sorry instead. The kid looked at the girl besides me and she actually handed him her plate of spaghetti and cake, cause she said, "Kawawa ka naman eh." I felt guilty after that, cause she gave her entire meal and i didn't even give my coke. So the next time a kid asked for my coke, (they were persistent) I gave it away. I'm a selfish rotten person, I guess. TnT An unsociable one too. Everytime someone would try to make conversation or smile at me, I smile back but I don't make conversation and if they try to talk to me, i apparently don't react too well to such things so they look for other people to talk to. There is something wrong with my social skills. (again, maybe i am Axyll/Celeste in the loner/laconic sense. Luckily, I'm less of an l/l when I'm with good friends. TnT) Although Sig and Stacy did confirm that I'm a rather secretive or "closed" type of person. People don't know much about me cause I don't really talk much about certain things. Thats why sig doesn't know the things i like and instead remembers me when she sees things i don't like, like frogs, i guess.

Well, now that it's my birthday, I've realized that there have been a lot of really extreme changes in my life. For instance, i was forced to learn independence and other stuff (like commuting alone) in such a short span of time. I've also noticed a lot of perspective changes in my life, though i still don't know what i want to be. Also, i don't feel like i'm going to school anymore. I guess its because U.P. is so unlike the school I've been attending for most of my life. It just doesn't feel like school anymore, though it probably will in the future. While I'm walking along the streets or commuting under the hot sun rushing to get to my next class, Mia or Tracy is probably sitting in class somewhere, such a different system. The teachers are different too... PhD, and all. Besides, being in a block with no friends or anything even near an aquaintance made me realize how much i truly enjoy having my friends around and having other miriam aquaintances around. (Hey, I saw CK, Tanya Q. Reg and Bong yesterday. I've never been so happy to see them before. TuT)

And, like every year, this particular birthday will not be celebrated in a particularly special way. We'll just eat out, and all. My dad even had to go to Baguio today because of some trial magiggy and Bern is presently in school. They greeted me already though. ^_^ (Apparently, my dad was waiting for me to wake up this morning, but since I woke up late, he had to leave already. He texted me instead. It was wierd coz while i was trying to sleep, i herad my mom and dad talking about having to go to baquio, and i also heard mom and bern talking about some gift for me i think. The things i hear...) Well, they were both gone by the time i was finally awake. It isn't really our habit to do special things for birthdays. I guess its because a birthday is really just like any other day, except that it marks another year of survival for a person, despite all losses and gains.

Speaking of losses and gains, I'm not particularly happy about losing time with my HS friends and gaining more time with people I have problems communicating with. I am happy though about getting a little bit taller (I think) and losing a little more weight. (I think ^_^)

Anyway, here are some fanfic Updates:
>I made a little "secret" survey for The Pendant about Favorite Pairings. Here are the results.
Conrad and Kisa-1
Ferendil and Giron-3
Ferendil and Zymeth-1
Celeste and Deepscar-0
Xyra and Reiko-2
Axyll and Deepscar-1
Anatimus and Daespora-1 (someone insisted. ^_^)

See the results? No one particularly likes a certain pairing *cough cough*. Ferendil and Giron are quite popular. (The most actually, coz they are usually in 2nd or 3rd choice, too :D) And all the rest have fans of their own, awww..

>We've more Deepscar and Axyll parodies. (is that how you spell it?) :D
>No more new drawings...
>New chapters and revisions to the old ones are currently being produced.
>Staff meetings still held regularly in Sig's house. ^_^ *nudges sig*
>All characters will be re-evaluated and re-analyzed. Then, they get a personality repair in the site if needed. :)
>Have i mentioned before a change in some of the characters clothing? Well, there are some...
>Visit the site ok? The Antagonist quiz already has graphics and stuff, and will soon be ready for the taking. :)
>Stacy, if you want the Dae graphic, just e-mail or txt vigile, sig or the phoenix site.(Or just tell us.) :)

Anyway, I'm gonna end this by saying, I MISS THE GANG OF THE HS TABLE! (the FA? the Kada?) Well, we aren't really known as anything officially anyway. And I MISS MY CERTEZA COUSINS! (Happy Birthday Justinne!) Bye again. ^_^

come fly ~ gen