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6:49 PM August 21, 2004

I'm once again in UP, renting a computer cause i'm not getting along with mine... (it still has a virus and i can't use it for anything other than typing and listening to songs... no internet there...) TnT Anyway, i've just come from stacy's... TuT And I saw sig last thursday... i hope i was indeed the first to greet her on time! :) I'm glad i can be happy still, despite the horrors i'm going through... no need to get suspicious, like we got with sig, *^_^ its all school related, and really just my own fault.

Anyway, i'm not feeling very happy at the moment, but i expected i wouldn't be happy anyway cause the coming week is HELL WEEK! Followed by hell week is an even more horrible thing, HELL WEEKEND! *GAAAAHHHH!!!* X_x I don't even know why i'm going through with this, except for the fact that maybe my pride can't take it to back away, and i don't want to back away after i've gone this far... GAAAAHHHH!!! And besides, somebody texted me that too.

When i was on my way here, i had a song in my head: "...I get by with the help of my friends..." and i probably will be turning to you guys. :) Be there, ok? :) It's a good thing i still get happy sometimes despite all this. (not right now though, but i was a while ago and last thursday) :) (BTW, i just flunked my Physics 10 exam. TnT) I'm not in good shape.. I need a lot of comfort soon, probably. I know i don't usually talk like this, but i feel depressed lately, but then again, Vigile, Sig and (i think) Stacy, all have been having down moments lately... But blogging is making me feel beter, helps me let out steam... i'll try to do this more often, but i don't really have much money. ^_^" vigile just texted me about being OP somewhere, i admit i don't feel OP in my own bunch, but it was brought about by common suffering... so in a way, vigile still is lucky. (Unless she goes through suffering this weekend... which probably still won't equal mine, but is painful nonetheless...) Stacy asked us why we don't quit whatever it is, since we seem to hate it more than otherwise (not sure about vigile, but i'm sure i'm waaayyy hateful about this)... and i often think that... much too often for my own good and sanity actually. :( I probably just don't have the guts to quit... and like i said earlier, i don't want to waste my effort to get to where i am, no matter that the road was rocky and will get worse and i don't know if the result will be worth it...) PRAY FOR ME!!! TnT Anyway, i hope i'll see you guys after this TERRIBLE ordeal, alive. @_@

Anyway, last minute stuff: Belated Happy birthday Sig and Bobbie! (Your cookies are greater than they seem Sig! they turn depression into hyper happiness. :D)
Hey stacy, remind me and vigile to tell you about this happy show. :) The funky family. :)
Hope i get to update again soon... T_T

come fly ~ gen