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9:22 AM September 02, 2004

Well, anyway here i am putting of some school work cause i love you guys so much (and i hate schoolwork as much ^-^")

Guys! I'm very very happy to say that HELL week and day is OVER!!!! WHoooooHOoooo!!!! Thanks to all of you, you really helped me get through it, A LOT. :) I expected to cry the entire hell day, but since you all encouraged me before the actual day, I wasn't in such a bad shape. :) THANK YOU!!!!!! *huggles and squeezes and jumps around with people huggled in arms* THANK YOU!! I was actually surprised that even Tracy called me up the night before, and stacy, kimmy and vigile were texting me on the day itself. It really made me feel so much better, I'm glad i have such good friends. :) You're probably wondering why i was so affected, and now i know the answer myself, thanks to my curious and persistent mind, i had the guts to ask a lot of WHYs and HOWs... Afterall, you all know that I'm not the crying type. (At least i think you do.) I keep my problems inside, i never share, I never cry... which is why I probably gave S and V a big shock when i started crying in front of them... Chubby too... *embarassed*
anyway, apparently psychological strength and physical strength were tested in this... er... test. it was a big part of the entire plan to stress us in those ways, just to see which ones were capable enough. There is good reason for this though... but since I'm not allowed to reveal much of this information, I'll just have to assure you that it did make sense when they finally explained it. (i think i accidentally revealed to someone why... maybe V or S or T... not sure though...) Anyway, it is also apparently the hardest thing to get into, worse than a sorority and fraternity. apparently. If i had known earlier, i would probably not have gotten into it. -_- Anyway, somewhat towards the end, they apparently thought I was already on the verge of breaking down, so they weren't that mean... i think. Especially since they spent a lot of time torturing me already. Anyway, I stuck on cause sometime during hell week, someone on "mean mode" was asking me: "Ano, kaya mo pa ba? Mag-quit ka na!" Then somebody beside her said: "You don't have to prove anything to anybody, just prove it to yourself." (Mag-buddy pa ata sila...) And before that, one of my co-apps said: "Kung di tayo magiging member, di na tayo lahat magkikita..." which was sad, cause my friends there are what Stacy's Ateneo Blockmates are to her, my first set of really good friends in college, minus High School. Besides, SAYANG sums it up. Money, time, effort, dignity, strength, you name it... And being the kuripot person that I am, after losing that much, there is no turning back. (I also know that its the perfect word for it cause i saw the regret of those people who turned away earlier... like Leo... and V and Bong agree with me on this.)
So anyway, here is a summary of updates:

UPDATES: (^_^)
>I am now officially a member of the UPRPT. I have a t-shirt, keychain and the right to the official handshake (most fulfilling...) I am now also Genina '04. :)
>I can now eat in KFC Katipunan for lunch. :)
>My camera phone is busted... T_T
>I'm a masochistic person who loves cats cause they scratch and head butt me like true martial artists... winks at 2 certain people... (did i spell masochistic right?)
>I think I flunked another exam, but then again, I'm not the only one... it was hard! I had to memorize so many freakin' Trigonometric formulas!
>And i didn't flunk the English exam like i thought i would, in fact, i apparently got one of the highest scores cause my teacher is a sadist and i remembered Sir Fermin's lesson... I was one of the only ones (in fact, possibly the only one) to alphabetize the bibliography entries in the test. Everyone didn't think it was needed cause it was numbered 1-15. I took a lucky guess, and I alphabetized my test cause the instructions said: "Write the following in proper bibliographical form). And my teacher, apparently a sadist, after seeing that everyone did not alphabetize, suddenly decided that the penalty would not be minus 1 per number, but just flat ZERO (0)! @_@ Is that mean or what?
>I passed but got low in my math midterm... *sigh*
>I don't say "GASP" anymore, I just gasp. :) Hehehe...
>Since I didn't have money, when S, V and I went on a gimmick yesterday, Sig bought me a Castrode Designs notebook (thank you sig! I'll find a way to pay you back without you knowing! :D) and Vigile bought me a black bear named Andy, c/o the chocolate snack Yan-yan(?). :D Anyway, we watched The Notebook yesterday, and as we geeks would so like to put it, it was an Ultraviolet Catastrophe... Sig exclaimed that it should have been called A Notebook instead, cause the story couldn't have been further from the original, she said it was worse than Harry Potter and LOTR combined... woah! That's a lot for sig! Anyway, i have to agree... the book was better. :) (Note to Tracy: We didn't watch Princess Diaries II for you cause we'll watch it on Saturday, right? :) Unfortunately, Sig and Stacy might not be able to make it, and my piano teacher is hunting me down... but I'm looking forward to showing you my fading "battle scars". :D)
>I have my Kattun CD again.
>I have Yahoo! messenger na! Yosh! After months of trying... TuT
>My umbrella is destroyed and its been raining like mad lately.
>Not that the last one was important. :) I just felt like mentioning it... good thing it didn't rain on hell day. :)
>I have... muscles in my arms...?
>My finger that was struck in arnis class was worse of than my battle scars though... hehe... ^-^ No pressure vigile, just stating a fact. And since I'm a masochist *cough* I didn't really mind the injury. ^_^
>I feel better now, thanks to everybody. :)

come fly ~ gen

i just remembered, we must say salamat instead of thanx. ^_^ must be makabayan!

~ Vigile | September 03, 2004 8:19 PM