Blog Version 12:
Butterflies/Flutter
10:21 PM
August 30, 2005
Going crazy...
I'm doing so bad in school right now that I almost burst into tears a while ago in Stat 101 after I recieved my exam. T_T For some bizarre reason, i got a score way below the mean score of 70/100. And here comes Vigile and Bong acting like the world has just burned their houses down when they got scores HIGHER than the mean... MUCH HIGHER than me. It's really hard to have friends who act like they're SOO depressed with a score much higher than yours. Makes you feel all the more horrible... T_T
Plus there's my Accounting exam. And of course Nat Sci.
Sometimes the weight of all these disappointments seem to weigh down on me all of a sudden and I start to think of how possibly stupid I really am... or of how weak willed I am... or how incapable I am of handling such pressures. I want to drop Nat Sci, but I don't want to waste money. I hate my life right now. I hate J***, I hate O*****, I hate A*********, I hate my exams, I hate homework, I hate C***, I hate my weakness, I hate someone sometimes, I hate a whole bunch of ideas a lot of the time, I hate so many things... T_T
Luckily there are things that are keeping me going, like the Films I watched last Saturday to uplift my mood, RPT application (who'da thought how much this would uplift me after a year?), my RPT batchmates (anniv ng batch namin kahapon and we had dinner in a very memorable place for us), my new books *joy!* and of course our unexpected holiday last monday, etc.
Thank goodness I know that God somehow still loves me!
come fly ~ gen
Vigile |
August 30, 2005 10:52 PM
