whee~

12:55 AM August 31, 2005

"i wanna talk about something, but I don't want to bother anyone about it. I want to cry to someone sometimes, but I don't think anyone would understand. I'm trapped inside my own shadowy cell of a brain, and there's nothing I can do it rid myself of the "it" that's crowding me inside.

What in the world will i do when its already tearing at me and I fear it's becoming too much for just one small mind..."

sniff...

I'll know my BA standing tomorrow... including the number of points i need and the probablity of my passing the subject. I'll know if i'll need to drop or not. And if I do, I'll know if I'll stay in the course or not. And if I do know, and I don't make it, I can simply take all my savings and somehow take a long vacation to distract myself from killing me. T_T

come fly ~ gen

remember that one time back in hs when we weren't close at all yet, 2nd year pa ata yun, tas i called you for lack of anyone else to tell my stupid problem to? and i was crying and you were all weirded out coz in the first place my problem was really really stupid but it was important to me.

wala, naalala ko lang. i owe you a shoulder to cry on. :)

~ Vigile | August 31, 2005 1:24 AM

lam mo ba, everytime killing myself becomes a good idea for me for some reason because of some problem, there's this solitary thing that keeps me from doing so. it even makes me feel worse for even thinking of taking my own life.

maybe you need to find that thing for you.

~ Vigile | August 31, 2005 1:30 AM

i think I know yours... hehehe... joke lang. ^^

I'm not seriously gonna kill myself. I'm too scared of hell to do so. ^^ (Suicides, I hear go straight to hell... but I dunno.)

But seriously, I'm getting to psycho-paraniod-stressed-whatever. Maybe I really do need counseling. -_-

~ Gen | August 31, 2005 1:39 AM

Hey Gen, remember what Takemoto's step dad said to him and his mom? "But you know, to me it seems like every time you worry about being a burden, it sounds like you're asking to be left alone." Don't think you'll be a burden Gen, it's worse for us if you don't say anything because we know something's wrong but we don't know what it is and we can't help fix something we have no idea what's the problem with no matter how much we want to. (and yes, we do want to help, very much) You are our friend, one of the very few people we care about in this overly populated world, who is very special to us. *hugs tight*

~ Signia | September 05, 2005 1:22 PM