3:56 PM
February 26, 2006
Mutterings...
A talk with Sig and Vig(ile) revealed that Kimmy's blog is an angry blog, Sig's is a sad blog, Vigile's is a problematic blog, Tracy's is a story blog (of course...) and my blog is just a patchwork of whatever narration I drag from the top of my head. Hmm... I guess that's what happens when you try to blog whenever you can, but only get to do so when you find a few spare minutes with which to cram in whatever it is you can remember at the moment. Tsk, tsk...
Anyhow... and so I rant. My aunt came from Baguio, and she brought us strawberries. Joy! And I also have 2 new 2006 planners. I'm gonna try to use them both, but it's kind of hard. AHh!
And anyway, I have a feeling that a lot of people in Greenhills (selling cellphones that is) may be crooks or something anyway. Or at least they won't do anything that they can't profit from. It's evil sometimes, how they cheat people. I even have a sinking feeling that some of the cellphones sold to them may be stolen. tsk, tsk. Anyway, i don't think people should buy from that place. If you want a good deal, get one in a place where people aren't desperate and willing to cheat to find a good deal for THEMSELVES. If you sell a phone to them, they'll sell it at around 2 grand more. But if you buy it directly from the original owner, you get it at the real, 2thousand less price. Or at 1 grand less and the seller gets 1 grand more. If only there was a better network for buyers and sellers. It's simply a matter of finding a better meeting point without those people in between. So honestly, if you want to buy a phone, find someone who wants to sell and get a direct source. You'll both be happier for it. :D
And anyway, I had to go to the dentist yesterday to have my braces' molar cap reattached. Incidently, it was in Makati, quite near the venue of the attempted coup. There was some debate on it becoming another People Power, but I think it's pretty clear right now that it wasn't. For one thing, nothing big really came out of it, certainly not PGMA's stepping down. Besides, it wasn't as widescale as the previous ones. GMA is obviously power crazy though. I doubt I'll ever live to see the day of her stepping down, unless the times gets really bad and extreme. With assassinations and everything. She is extremely power hungry and overly attached to her position. Oh well.One thing is for sure, no one will be content while she's in power. >_<
Anyway, I got my narrative critiqued in class. It was a mortifying experience. But at least it wasn't all bad. And our classmates comments were even worse. X_X When asked what our piece was about, for instance, a classmate descirbed Bong's character as weak, and then my piece as dull. Guy classmates have the worst comments though. I wonder how it'll be like if we actually succeeded in preroging for that CW10 teacher Bong and I originally settled for. Hmmm...
And about my new cellphone, (I finally have a new one! after several months!) I realized lately how bad I feel about buying one. I never realized that spending such a big amount of money like that can get me so disturbed and guilty. Not that it was really big. It was actually quite reasonable. Less than Bern's phone, for one, and they're both second hand. But we really shouldn't be spending much money right now. X_x The satisfaction of getting a new phone is not worth the guilt I got over spending money to buy it. Or the worry I currently have of losing the phone. Considering my luck... X_x
Feb is ending! UPCAT results are coming! 1 month left in school!
I think I like Feb, in general. :D
BTW! France has about 7 tickets of free ice skating in mega mall that will expire on Feb 28. Anyone interested? That's 2 days. ^^;
And White Dragon is nice. I'm starting to see dragons everywhere. Hehehe... ^_^;
2:03 AM
February 09, 2006
Mabuhay ang Linux!http://www.up.edu.ph/forum/2003/Jan03/letter.html --> astig pala si Nemenzo XD
Tignan nyo ung ibang mga artikulo tungkol sa Linux doon sa UP website. May lugar doon pangdownload. I-li-link ko lang ang article na 'to kasi natuwa ako sa sinabi ni President Nemenzo: "I-Filipino natin ito para di maintindihan ni Bill Gates." XD Natawa ako don! Maging ano pa man, mukhang nagkakaroon ng Linux rebolusyon at fever ang UP, ayon sa site na iyon. At nung nagpunta nga kami ng SC, halos hindi kami makapagpaprint dahil Linux lahat ang gamit nila sa SC, di na compatible ang Windows. Pero ok lang, mas mura ata ang laptop na walang Windows OS. ;D At nakakatuwa pa ang linux kasi ang daming nyang klase: suse, ubuntu, tapos ung mga yun parehong may dalawa pa uling klase, ung kde at gnome. Saya. Yung meron kami ung lahat, pero ung nakainstall ung suse gnome. ^^ At merong RPG sa Linux na pwede kang pumili ng bansa kung ano ka. Tapos may Pilipinas. nakakatuwa naman.
Must. Stop. Ranting. Need. To. Study.
1:37 AM
Wednesday...The contents of my brain seem to be rambling about like a song from Radioactive Sago Project. I was supposed to finish my creative narrative yesterday night, revise it this morning, and read my accounting book in the afternoon, meet Vigile in UP at 4, then continue with my accounting when I get back. BUT NOOOO!!! I slaved all day in front of the computer, a worst case scenario come to life. I was having such a bad case of writer's block that I still didn't have a decent narrative by 10 pm. Imagine the panic. I was supposed to have the piece photocopied this afternoon, (i need 24 copies, you see) and I don't have time to do it tomorrow because I don't have a morning break. T_T And with this deadline prancing about so dangerously close, I was finally able to finish a substandard crammed narrative. It saddens me that I'm about to prove that I am unworthy of the earlier praise I recieved from Vigile abou tmy improved writing. This writer's block couldn't have come at a worst time. At least I was able to write one slightly decent piece before it occured. Not that
that will be of much use to my CW10 crisis. T_T I just finished my narrative and am typing this online. Imagine. It's almost 2 and I've just finished now! X_x
And Bianca installed Linux Suse in our computer today. It's so cute, for some bizarre reasons. ^^ There are penguins, iguanas, foxes and what not all over the place. ^^ And the games are fun. Hehehe... (I had to take a break before my overstressed and inefficient brain fries itself).
I. Need. To. Study. Must. Work. Can't. Waste. Time.
1:36 AM
02/07/06
Mental Block.I'm supposed to be writing my creative nonfiction narrative for CW 10 right not so I can study accounting tomorrow, but I seem to have bumped into some wall inside my head. Some blockage of sorts that seems to stop the flow of my ideas from reaching my recognition. And thus, they are all just trapped there in my unconscious, and when I don't need them anymore (or if i'm in the middle of some exam and don't have more time for them beyond a second or two's procrastination) they'll tragically be cast into the Realm of the Unfinished and the Forgotten, (someday I'll give that world a name... ^^) which is a shame. I wonder why for some bizarre reason I almost come up with the weirdest ideas and urges when I'm studying. The peak of my creativity seems to occur in the small crack of time I find my brain distracted from academic school work. I suddenly feel like painting though I don't know how, or cleaning an impossible glass top table, or writing poetry (though I must note that all the creativity in the world never seems to boil down to even a single nugget of talent. No matter how stressed, I never seem to be able to churn out decent poetry -_-). The other day, I sudden;y found myself attempting more ambigrams of my name. -_- As if one on the back of my hand isn't enough. Vanity, vanity!
I borrowed 2 dvds from Sig but since I had to study, only Bern was able to watch the 2 of them. The rest of us were only able to squeeze in one. Tragic. But anyway, on the topic of dvds, I helped Vigile find a super rare one that I think she may have REALLY wanted. ^_^ But before we stumbled onto this rare gem of a dvd, we bumped into so many others that I wanted to buy! *drool drool* Must watch movies... urgh... X_x But dvds are expensive. /pif
One of the movies I saw that I really want to watch is Tristan and Isolde. I was told that it's supposed to Tristram, and yeah, I sort of remember that. *thinks* Anyway, the truth is I don't know anything about the movie or their story, but I know that it's Arthurian cause Tristram is one of his Knights and sometime ago I found myself quite fascinated with that brand of folklore. Besides, it looks interesting, and I really hope it is. The bright side is that I don't know their actual story, I just sort of encountered their names together in a book once, so I probably won't react as badly as if I did know.
Hmm... The phoenix seems dead again, or maybe on the brink. Tsk tsk... It takes more time for it to get reborn than it stays alive. u_u
WAAAAAAAH!!!! Back to my ranting. I wrote a certain piece for CW10 already, but Vigile still dislikes the ending and both she and Bianca don't really get its subtleties, which is a bad thing considering its
them, both of whom are excellent at writing. What more my CW10 classmates who are so unused to my writing and thought pattern? Will the piece seem Greek to them?? *Shame shame* Plus apparently, the piece doesn't fit the required criteria. -_-
I was scanning my previous blog entries, and I realized, Hey! I've had my crappy phone up until today, and it was busted since late September. Interesting how I survived this far. Lately, however, the phone is beyond use. It is no longer functional and has hence caused me to be late for 2 hours because I couldn't get the text message telling me where I should meet the people I'm meeting. And even after turning it on and off for 2 hours, it still wouldn't work. >:( It rejects sim cards, it destroys or cuts messages, it turns off by itself and it often does not want to load both my inbox and phonebook. I asked a friend, and she said the same thing happened to her phone. Gah! It's almost like i don't have a phone sometimes. >:( But the amusing part is, everyone in the trio currently has a busted phone. What a coincidence. ^^
And I have this teacher whom I really really dislike. I think I have never disliked a teacher more than her, even more than my old Eng 10 teacher. I dislike her so much I pity her because I do, which must be pretty extreme because it's almost full circle. Grawr... If the world did not have socially accepted norms and behavior conducts and codes of etiquette(sp?) and there was no such thing as morality, respect or guilt, I probably would have stood up and given her a small piece of my mind. But of course, without those things prementioned above, I have a feeling I won't be the first or the last to do it to her. She's rather dellusional, if you ask me. I approached once and asked if we need to buy the book, and she said: "NO, the internet or any book will do." She even kept on stressing that those were just supplimentary etc. And then the exam comes and we all flunk because she kept on adding terms she randomly bumped into in the net.
Sobra! As if one can actually scour the entire internet about such a stupidly broad topic. X( And the rest she took from the
book. And the most annoying part is that the particular questions she asked could only be found in that book, no where else. And she goes about in her lecture saying: "If you read the book you would have gotten the questions..." And to top it all, she gave two reference books. I asked her about one of the books, and she says: "
any". So Bong obtains the other book, and I use any book. But apparently she only uses the one I asked her about. She could have just said so. She's the most unthorough, irrational, dellusional.... Grawr... D:<
And I'm dead next week. I have an Accounting exam, and yet I have to help man the RPT booths for the fair, up until 3 am!!! The exam will be the hardest, and it's also the one with the biggest weight. Goodbye World... T__T
1:41 PM
February 04, 2006
Old and NewStress these days is almost tangible. Great enough to actually get me depressed occasionally, and cranky. I'm a little delayed with my readings, but I promised someone I'd post an entry, so there.
Hmm... I haven't written an entry for so long, I think I've sort of forgotten how. NVM. I'll still write anyway, if only to keep this blog alive and fuctional at its purpose (which I had almost forgotten had someone not reminded me.) Not that I ever intend to kill this blog either. I love this blog. And making lay-outs for it, though I rarely do. ^^
It's February. I've been in UP for more than a year. I'm still thankfully in touch with my high scholl kada, and in some ways even closer. And we've even apparently discovered a new driving force that prompts more often gimmicks. XD I'm reading more authors, and Vigile says I even write better than last sem. I'm not taller or thinner as far as I know, but I think my 'fortune-telling prowess' has increased. Heheh... (One of my predictions was that ** would come after Kimmy in discovering a romance, and I think I was right. The same person predicted that I would be the next after Kimmy, but that would be, is, a joke. Hah!)
Acad-wise, I was painfully reminded of my poor performance last sem, with those sh*tty subjects Stat and NatSci1. Tsk... People are getting 'letters' again. Fine, I'm not a US! X_x My decline was too rapid. At least I think I'm much more stable now, or at least more prepared. My subjects this sem are relatively less problematic than last sem (about 4 have only 2 exams, one doesn't have any, and only Accounting persists on multiple hellish exams), but that's being super duper -rainbow-over-the-flower-fields optimistic. I have an inexistent Bio project with invisible groupmates, a half-baked BA paper with not-thorough group mates who could care less, and a CW 10 paper to write. But relatively, I'd say they were withstandable. At the moment at least. *sob*
Its actually the org stuff that's doubling my work. The fair is approaching, and I can tell that that's going to be a killer. X_x
Imagine, just a year ago only Vigile and Bong were able to talk 'econtalk', a.k.a. the language of their course. Now I'm doing so too. Acctg talk that is. ^^ Though sometimes this is even the source of some of our bickering. Tsk. ^^ Despite this little catch-up however, I am obviously still less adept at my course, socially to be specific. For some bizarre reason, apart from my Org friends, most of whom are from the upper batches, I barely have friends in my own batch. And most of the friends I have from my batch are from econ. 0_o Sure I have a few in BA, but they belong to their own tighly knit circle of friends that one can't just intrude upon. But then again, I guess that's what an org is for. At least I can't say I'm entirely bare of BA friends. ;_;
The Rule of Four is really nice. ^^ I'm making a little headway into the book, but its worth the little time I squeeze out of my activities. And thankfully, those activities are beginning to include more study time. I should be studying more! If only to at least have the freedom to complain that no matter how much I study, it wont be enough. It's either that or hate myself for not studying, cause either way, Accounting won't be kind. X_x
And I got a free henna tattoo on my hand. Its an ambigram, but it looks more like the scribbles on a chinese talisman, like Syaoran's of CCS. :D
I hope I'm making sense. This entry is (and again I use the expression) a Frankenstein monster of put together thought fragments, at least those that I could rescue from the long blogless days I've been having.
Hmm.. I guess I don't really have anything of much interest to write about, unlike Vigile or Stacy. I hear that Vigile's blog is causing a little wave of controversy somewhere. *wink wink* But this is it, and this will have to do. I'll try to blog more often at least. ^^
11:52 AM
Semi-Hiatus Mode...Wow, Vigile has been writing in her blog a lot. I've been really busy lately, a little let-down sometimes, stressed and overloaded at others. But that's how it is when you take on too many responsibilities. Not that I intended to do so. But sometimes, just being in a certain situation at a certain time is enough. But some of them I would never trade.
And I got to see stacy once this week. I feel a little bad about friday. It was nobody's fault, but it turned out bad anyway. No one saw each other. u_u
Events, events.
Date: Jan 29
Event: Shooting competition.
Enemies: Shooting Veterans from everywhere inc the mountains, Ateneo, etc.
Personal Turn-out: Depressing
Personal Performance: ...
Consolation: Nice teammates. :D
What happened: My beloved gun was apparently busted that day. despite the vigilant effort of our pistol team coach and captain to conduct on-the-spot surgery on it, it wasn't ready for the competition. So a new and unfamiliar gun(though beautiful and dreamlike) was handed to us for use. (Feinwerkbau 103 was nice, and i could hardly believe that i was using such a gun. I never imagined i would in my life, except if i won a lottery and bought one. Fat chance.) But i wasn't used to it and that spells BAD in more ways than should be acceptable. And my bay was busted. I actually almost burst into tears in the middle of the competition.
A pure and unadulterated example of instant, immediate and heavy stress pile-up. Amidst a competition, with an impossibly infeasible time-limit looming over you! It's like taking an exam and realizing that the paper was written in nihongo. Though you can make out a couple of the hiragana letters, its not enough to keep you confident and sane.
Verdict: Memorable.
Date: Jan 27
Event: Ventures Deadline
Conflict: A very controversial article, a looming exam, a pressing deadline and high tension with the working staff.
Verdict: Crazy
Date: Jan 27
Event: Late night meeting at kfc
The thing: Never have I ever game
Revelations: *toot* Interesting, but confidential. ;)
Downside: I unintentionally cheated on a nice old jeepney driver. T_T
Verdict: Fun. (
sa uulitin!)
I'll continue this later.
