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1:36 AM February 09, 2006

02/07/06
Mental Block.

I'm supposed to be writing my creative nonfiction narrative for CW 10 right not so I can study accounting tomorrow, but I seem to have bumped into some wall inside my head. Some blockage of sorts that seems to stop the flow of my ideas from reaching my recognition. And thus, they are all just trapped there in my unconscious, and when I don't need them anymore (or if i'm in the middle of some exam and don't have more time for them beyond a second or two's procrastination) they'll tragically be cast into the Realm of the Unfinished and the Forgotten, (someday I'll give that world a name... ^^) which is a shame. I wonder why for some bizarre reason I almost come up with the weirdest ideas and urges when I'm studying. The peak of my creativity seems to occur in the small crack of time I find my brain distracted from academic school work. I suddenly feel like painting though I don't know how, or cleaning an impossible glass top table, or writing poetry (though I must note that all the creativity in the world never seems to boil down to even a single nugget of talent. No matter how stressed, I never seem to be able to churn out decent poetry -_-). The other day, I sudden;y found myself attempting more ambigrams of my name. -_- As if one on the back of my hand isn't enough. Vanity, vanity!

I borrowed 2 dvds from Sig but since I had to study, only Bern was able to watch the 2 of them. The rest of us were only able to squeeze in one. Tragic. But anyway, on the topic of dvds, I helped Vigile find a super rare one that I think she may have REALLY wanted. ^_^ But before we stumbled onto this rare gem of a dvd, we bumped into so many others that I wanted to buy! *drool drool* Must watch movies... urgh... X_x But dvds are expensive. /pif

One of the movies I saw that I really want to watch is Tristan and Isolde. I was told that it's supposed to Tristram, and yeah, I sort of remember that. *thinks* Anyway, the truth is I don't know anything about the movie or their story, but I know that it's Arthurian cause Tristram is one of his Knights and sometime ago I found myself quite fascinated with that brand of folklore. Besides, it looks interesting, and I really hope it is. The bright side is that I don't know their actual story, I just sort of encountered their names together in a book once, so I probably won't react as badly as if I did know.

Hmm... The phoenix seems dead again, or maybe on the brink. Tsk tsk... It takes more time for it to get reborn than it stays alive. u_u

WAAAAAAAH!!!! Back to my ranting. I wrote a certain piece for CW10 already, but Vigile still dislikes the ending and both she and Bianca don't really get its subtleties, which is a bad thing considering its them, both of whom are excellent at writing. What more my CW10 classmates who are so unused to my writing and thought pattern? Will the piece seem Greek to them?? *Shame shame* Plus apparently, the piece doesn't fit the required criteria. -_-

I was scanning my previous blog entries, and I realized, Hey! I've had my crappy phone up until today, and it was busted since late September. Interesting how I survived this far. Lately, however, the phone is beyond use. It is no longer functional and has hence caused me to be late for 2 hours because I couldn't get the text message telling me where I should meet the people I'm meeting. And even after turning it on and off for 2 hours, it still wouldn't work. >:( It rejects sim cards, it destroys or cuts messages, it turns off by itself and it often does not want to load both my inbox and phonebook. I asked a friend, and she said the same thing happened to her phone. Gah! It's almost like i don't have a phone sometimes. >:( But the amusing part is, everyone in the trio currently has a busted phone. What a coincidence. ^^

And I have this teacher whom I really really dislike. I think I have never disliked a teacher more than her, even more than my old Eng 10 teacher. I dislike her so much I pity her because I do, which must be pretty extreme because it's almost full circle. Grawr... If the world did not have socially accepted norms and behavior conducts and codes of etiquette(sp?) and there was no such thing as morality, respect or guilt, I probably would have stood up and given her a small piece of my mind. But of course, without those things prementioned above, I have a feeling I won't be the first or the last to do it to her. She's rather dellusional, if you ask me. I approached once and asked if we need to buy the book, and she said: "NO, the internet or any book will do." She even kept on stressing that those were just supplimentary etc. And then the exam comes and we all flunk because she kept on adding terms she randomly bumped into in the net. Sobra! As if one can actually scour the entire internet about such a stupidly broad topic. X( And the rest she took from the book. And the most annoying part is that the particular questions she asked could only be found in that book, no where else. And she goes about in her lecture saying: "If you read the book you would have gotten the questions..." And to top it all, she gave two reference books. I asked her about one of the books, and she says: "any". So Bong obtains the other book, and I use any book. But apparently she only uses the one I asked her about. She could have just said so. She's the most unthorough, irrational, dellusional.... Grawr... D:<

And I'm dead next week. I have an Accounting exam, and yet I have to help man the RPT booths for the fair, up until 3 am!!! The exam will be the hardest, and it's also the one with the biggest weight. Goodbye World... T__T

come fly ~ gen