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What's up with me...
1:56 PM May 20, 2006

Preenlistment results are out, and I'm very pleased with it. Despite the fact that I didn't get the jap class I was trying for, everything else turned out exceptionally well, especially my PE. *happy* So I hopefully will have a fairly ok time with enlistment this sem. :) Let's just hope and pray that I got good teachers as well. Cause I've realized, I've been extremely lucky thus far, and a downturn now could spell the difference between passing or failing. Arg... As is the case with some of my batchmates, who suffered a heavy blow with a very cruel teacher last sem. X_x

I was looking at a list of scholarships for BA students just yesterday, and I found one with a fairly reasonable grade requirement (2.5 - and only in accounting) and with a very good sum of money (50k) for incoming junior students just like myself, with more than the usual number of slots available too. As far as I know, I fit the requirements okay, and its a good corporation too. But when I told my mom, she said it would be best to maybe just leave the scholarships for people who need it more. Not that we don't need it ourselves, but there is a big likelihood that someone out there needs it more. Sensitivity. Kawawa naman daw sila. Besides, if I intend to take an MBA program, will I be hindered because I have to work in their corporation already? Hmm... Though I have to admit I wanna get into that corporation. XD And I'm not entirely sure I want to take Masters anyway. *shrug* But i guess it'll be easier to live life with less expectations than I already have to live with. If I flunk 114 next year, will the corporation come back to get a refund or something? I'll have to deal with a lot more shame than would be necessary too. X_x I might be thinking too much though. Maybe it won't turn out as bad as I think. Maybe i will graduate fine in 2009. But seeing how my relatives react, I'll probably be the shame of this branch of the family if I DO get the boot. There's a silver lining in every cloud, and definitely an opposite reality to this fantasy. The stronger the gun the stronger the recoil. There is a very strong current of UP pride in this branch, and I just don't see it slowing down for someone who isn't up to their standards. *sigh* The expectations on both me and BIanca are pretty high, considering we started out promisingly, getting into BAA and ComEng. But of course, dealing with such high expectations is potentially dangerous when you're treading on sickeningly thin ice. I have a feeling it just isn't an option for me (or Bianca) to flunk out of this (our) course. Anymore than it is an option for Vigile to flunk out of econ. DANGER DANGER DANGER

Anyway, perhaps I will just leave the scholarship for someone more in need and perhaps more deserving. Though I do intend to finish this course, as much as I am able.

On the brighter, though probably potentially stressful, side of things, I'm now ALSO a staff of the BA-Econ CAP. I've been interested in this and have wanted to work in it at least once during my stay in UP, and now I have the chance. :D Although if i think about it, i may be taking on more responsibilities than I can handle. Tsk, tsk... If i'm able to pull through after this semester, I think I'll be able to do anything! X_x The thing with me is, and i say this with all honesty, when I get into something, my conscience dictates that I give it the attention it requires, whether or not I like it, given that I can. (Although Vigile may just have a worse case of this than I do, except she knows when enough is enough i.e. O*ti*s.) Which is why I greatly hesitated to reaff with O*ti*s, which is also why I've never missed an *PT meeting, which is also why I conscientiously attend *enni* UP meetings, why I got really stressed just as a J*I* F* staff, which is why I make a fairly decent applicant, etc. It's crazy, and at times, I wish i could just learn to say I need a break. T_T But a responsibility is a responsibility. Besides, I want to join CAP. But I'm definitely taking an O*ti*s Hiatus right now. Hell knows what I'll have to put up with. Sorry buddies! X(

Stacy might be shifting, but the results will comeout at the end of May. Bong and Stacy will both be getting their licenses by then too, and maybe I can get to visit MIa as well. The Publicity committee is going on a Baguio trip, if it pushes through. Amagad!!! I hope it does. *u* All of a sudden I love Baguio! XD I've also finished the book I'm reading. AAahh! Cliff Hanger ending!!! How horrible!! X( Now I'm gonna have to buy the last of the trilogy to find out the ending. And I was so excited. X( But the events are getting more interesting, and a big twist at the end made the book much more interesting (though I must admit I had suspicions that there would be such a twist. ^^ I'm good. Hehe..) Must buy last Book... Urgh! X_x

Speaking of books, I lent Vigile a book lately. She finished it, but said it was ugly. T_T It's ok. I may have found the book nice because I read it after an incredibly ugly book. I guess I was a little bit more lucky to have enjoyed it. But I appreciated the honesty vigile. :) In fact, I'll lend you more books if you're interested. Then tell me what you think. :D

My lola has been hospitalized because of another stroke. Certezas, I hope you read this. I think she'll be fine though. Tita Lea is coming from Bicol to visit lola, and she's in Capitol, so lolo is near enough to visit. The M is still in Negros, and I don't think she'll be coming back. My mom visits everyday, and since they haven't thought to bring us for a visit, I figure her condition is not that bad. Mild enough for her to demand peace and quiet at least. And we had lunch with her for mother's day, and she even recognizes my other lola, and she still shows a preference for a particular song, Nicuela-something-something. Funny cause she listens to it over and over and says all other music is ugly. I think the other people in PT already hate the song. ^^; I'll update you. Or something. All the rest of you, if you can, pray for my lola. She's really sweet and nice and everything a lola should be. Thank you! ^x^

I'm turning 20. I'm old. And I can't believe how near that is. My ex-best friend turned twenty this month. Hmm... Time flies.

come fly ~ gen

>__________> another thing with you, gen, and I say this with all honesty, (although i can't be sure if it applies to others, but it does with me, very often, sadly) is that you tend to misunderstand what people say when they give their opinion.

either you just have some sort of subtle impaired memory or hearing disability, or you simply remember the words that make an opinion sound negative.

you might have forgotten the word "ending " when you said I hated the book. NO I DID NOT HATE BEAUTY. I LIKED IT. that was why i was disappointed because what i did hate about it was its ending, NOT THE BOOK ITSELF. it simply wasn't at par with the niceness of the rest of the book.

i will remember next time not to give you the opinions I have that you MIGHT mistake as negative. it'll cause less misunderstandings.

~ Vigile | May 21, 2006 12:17 AM

maybe it's my own fault that you always misunderstand me. i must always make things sound so bad.

sorry for blaming you. you are merely the receiver of my opinions afterall. i am at fault, not you.

~ Vigile | May 21, 2006 1:37 AM

Hmm... I think you were refering to the ending, but I DID misunderstand you cause so many conversations were going on simultaneously at the time.

Sorry. I really thought you meant that the engind was so ugly, it made the book ugly. :P I really thought that was it. I'll pay more attention next time.

And perhaps another thing that contributed to the misunderstanding is that I really thought you wouldn't like the book, from the start. I mean, compared to Unbearable lightness... I didn't think you'd like it much, considering one of the reasons why I liked it so much was becuase I read it after a REALLY BAD book. I probably would have still liked it after a good book, but I liked it more after a bad book. *shrug*

Sorry! u__________u

~ Gen | May 22, 2006 12:36 PM

eheheh..sowee din. >_> was having post menstrual syndrome. >_______<

~ Vigile | May 22, 2006 8:39 PM

There's a post menstrual syndrome? @.@ Hmm... I was thinking of borrowing the book but after reading that Vig thought it had a horrid ending, I better not. :p I might say worse things~ ^^

I guess I don't really have time to read anyways considering work is 12 hours straight. @.@ Still fun though~ :p

~ Signia | May 22, 2006 10:58 PM