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Remembered to blog
3:19 PM August 20, 2006

I was once again surfing the internet, wondering what to do, bloghopping, tagging, etc, etc, then it occurred to me that I should blog myself. Gee... I really am forgetting. Tsk.

Anyway, being an officer/chair/co-chair or whatever it is the org wants to call it is HARD. (Though fulfilling of course, I can't completely do away with it as completely negative.) But I really should learn to cut down accepting too many responsibilities when there's a possibility that I can't address them well and proper as befitting them. *sigh* It's bothering my conscience, it's embarrassing to the others who are expecting the supposed help, and its just turns study time into unproductive, tired and sleepy time. -_-

I was thinking of joining the CE week team next sem, but not anymore. I imagine it will be a hellish lot of work and that might not be something I can afford. For JPIA, I think I'll just be an active member, although UJF will probably require more help than this sem requires. For the others, there might not be any solution because my commitment is supposed to be a whole year thing. Poor Optics. So many people stepped down already, and so many people are inactive. I hope the apps do well. Rant rant... All this holds, whether or not I pass a certain BA subject this sem, although the chance of that is hugely questionable. BUT I HAVE TO PASS! T_T The only consideration that slightly aleviates this damnable idea is the fact that I'd be able to graduate during the centennial? of my University. But even that is starting to lose it appeal.

But then there are times when I think: Is all this really worth the torture? Is this course really for me anyway? But then I asked a terminal about this and she said it really happens. The truth is, your battle is with yourself, yada yada... Alright then. I'll try my best, but if things don't improve, well. To he*L with that.

As a matter of fact, why am I even blogging right now? I should be off the PC and hitting the Accounting books for all they're worth. @_@ Gawd.

come fly ~ gen