Thinking while printing...
7:27 PMOctober 09, 2006
I should be studying, but i'll just make a quick note while i leave the printer to ever-so-slowly churn out my reviewers.
I wish i had someone to talk to. Sometimes, you realize every now and again (quite sadly) that there are things you just can't tell any one. Not because no one should know or whatever, it's just that no one seems to be an appropriate listener for it. There are things you tell a certain friend, some things another, sometimes even your siblings or parents. But some things just don't seem to match any of the available confidants. Either because you know they won't react the way you want them to, or they won't see it like you do, or they just won't understand.
Maybe that's why people are always "searching". But then again, I doubt that there can be someone you can tell everything to. It just defies reason. -_-
I guess there are just some things you really have to work out on your own. Although I'm pretty sure that these things won't seem so evilly terrible if there was someone I could talk to. But at least I know I can be proud of myself after this. Either that or I'll perpetually hate myself for making the wrong decision. But at least the blame's on me right?
*pausing for an after thought: Just how many "some"'s did I use? 0_0 ~Argh. Ignore me on this.*
come fly ~ gen
in a matter of a few lines, you've explained why you seem to be the least-troubled (non academically) among the kada.. :( 'cause none of us know what you're really feeling about stuff that you think we won't understand.
T__T I felt rather guilty after reading this entry for two reasons. First because I haven't been around you much lately to serve as a potential listener, even if what you're saying are just distant metaphors to what you really want to let out. Cause i think metaphors and crypticness like that help, even if they help but little. Churi ha..:(
Second is because (and I'm rather ashamed to say it..) I sort of fit into all three categories you mentioned (ie., they won't react the way you want them to, or they won't see it like you do, or they just won't understand). I know I'm really closed minded, when I really really REALLY shouldnt be for many many many reasons. X___x I'm sorry. :( I've been this way since i could remember. I thought once that I had opened up a bit..O__o pero in the long run hindi pala..which is not so nice considering I'm in UP..
i hope you know that I am willing to listen, although i may not react the way you want me to, or i may not understand, I want you to know that I'm on your "list of people you can (try to) talk to" I may be the last on your list but I'm there. :) *huggles*
Vigile |
October 12, 2006 6:50 AM
