Ending with a Bang
10:46 PM
December 31, 2006
A few minutes till the new year, 2007 (somehow, I think it'll be Stacy's year because of the 7, hehe..) wonder what this coming year will bring. But first, a visit of the ending year.
As that BMW commercial says, everyone makes lists in an attempt to make order out of their lives, etc. etc., and on every list, there is a first. So, to cap of the year
2006, here's a list of firsts (favorites actually, to make things much shorter. ^_^;)
Favorite Color: Violet and Black
Favorite T.V. series: House M.D. Hehe..
Favorite Anime: Death Note, Ouran, Tsubasa Chronicle
Favorite Song (Temporarily): From some obscure soundtrack: Glaring Dream
Favorite Video Game: Suikoden I & II (I recently discovered the Gaiden too!)
Favorite Book I've read this Year: Wychwood?
Favorite Movie watched this Year: This is hard... I don't remember. ^^;
Favorite Xmas Gift: Not sure, but I love this cellphone charm, keychain and
flashlight thingy I was given. ^^;
Favorite Computer Game: Mystery Case Files, Prime Suspects
Hmm... I didn't realize it was so hard to recall such things. Inevitable. Anyway, looking forward to the year ahead, I hope to:
1. Sleep more
2. watch basilisk, bleach and TRC season 2
3. not get so left behind in my lessons
4. grow taller (hahaha!)
5. be nicer. ^^;
6. try to keep a journal, i guess. To flush out all those negative emotions I have all year round. @_@
7. cut down to impulsive buying! it's nuts!
8. DO a sport, at least once in a while if not regularly. Hehe..
So there... I still have quite a lot to blog about, like the impromptu EK trip with the Reyes and Sarte Cousins, and not to mention the reunion. Now that was one trip that ended with a loud bang. Although we usually cap of the eventful day with a tame ride on the ferriswheel or carousel, we ended this particular trip with the space shuttle, which some of us are scared to death of. I sorely got to test the length of my scream there. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahHHHH!
So there, HAppy New YEar people! May we have a great year ahead! BANG!
Christmas Ghosts
9:22 AM
December 25, 2006
Last night, as i received and replied to Christmas greetings on my cellphone, i suddenly had this urge to apologize to certain people I've been mean to, or angry at this year sometime this year (although of course I'm more likely to remember the more recent ones). I don't know, as I explained to one of them, it's a haunting of Christmas ghosts. I was pretty pleased with the idea, maybe I could make it some yearly tradition to apologize to people so that the next year can start anew. Not that I intend to go around pissing off people every year. But anyway I figured, what better time than Christmas right?
Anyhow, I got as far as three people before realizing that I couldn't go much further. ^^; Yes, I know I'm an evil Loser. But seriously, i wanted to send apologies that I really meant, and that's part of the hardness of it. And on top of it all, I already felt bothered by the weight of the three already. Cause I had to think first before sending right? And a lot of reflecting and pondering on the feeling of sorry-ness, guilt or whatever for three scenarios is pretty heavy for one night. @_@
So snap-Christmas-project: Failure. (But at least someone got my text. Hehe...)
*If you feel that I should have said sorry to you but didn't, it's most likely because I stopped at three and couldn't for the life of me get any further. Sorry sorry...
You know, I noticed that every year Christmas gets less festive. That's what happens, I guess, when people in the house grow up and there are no kids to get all jumpy and cheery in the morning. But I must admit, this Christmas was better than the last two. We actually had a pretty good
noche buena. :) I'm definitely sure that it's my favorite meal of the season. Simple food, but delicious nonetheless. Unlike reunions that serve extremely heart-attack-rich food. Last night, we had
queso de bola,
fiesta ham,
bibingka, coffee rolls,
pandesal, hot chocolate, etc. Better than today's
Lengua and
pansit if you ask me. ^^; Hehe...
Anyhow, we've never had less gifts for Christmas before. With the whole family combined, we opened more or less 20 gifts this morning, and we're five in the family. So that's 4 each. ^^; Since we traditionally eat breakfast together before opening gifts together, we usually start early so we can clean up for lunch. This year however, took a little less than 20 minutes? But I don't think any of us minded. Interestingly, Bianca and I ended up giving each other DVD series, and we also got France and my mom a set each. ^^; So we're in for one helluva long movie/series marathon! Hehe... Fun! Goodbye books again. I haven't studied all break, and from the looks of things, I won't be able to study any more soon. Happy thoughts. Hehe.. \(^__^)/ And to cap things off, I'm just relieved that most of my gifts didn't end up as disasters as I worried. There! So everyone, sorry I haven't been replying, I'm running low on load plus I wasn't able to register for unlimitxt. ^^;
Merry Christmas everyone!!!
Pics and Doggies
12:56 PM
December 19, 2006
Yey! I got my phone back from the repair shop! the weirdest thing is that they told us they couldn't fix the phone and that we should just pick it up cause it's problem was in the motherboard, etc etc, and it couldn't be repaired. But when I tried it out at home it was fixed. 0_0 Before I couldn't make calls cause sound wouldn't come out of the speakers, but now it does.
Also, we have our doggy now!
Official Name: Twinkle Bell(e?)
Nickname: none yet (but i call it doggy)
Gender: female
Breed: Mini Pinscher
Color: Brown
Age: Dunno... Hehe.. But it's still a baby. ^^;
About the name, we aren't too crazy about it. When I first heard it, I had to wince. Talk about some rip-off of Paris Hilton's dog's name. But anyway, its funny to note that it has a B name, as all of us siblings also have B names. ^^;
So anyway, we were thinking of possible nicknames, any suggestions? My mom and sisters are worried that the name "doggy" will stick to it, and it'll respond to nothing else. @_@ I can't help it if I have this really bad knack for naming things. I have a stuffed toy named Puppy-doggy, and another named Doggy-doggy to differentiate my 2 stuffed dogs. I used to have a bunny named "Blue Bunny", and currently have a bear named "Sig Bear", cause Sig gave it to me. ^^; To top it all of, I have a tiger named "Kitty", another bear named "brown bear", a plushy pig named "pillow pig" and a panda looking bee named "Panda-bee". It's not that I don't like them. It's just that sometimes other names just don't seem right. I don't know. I guess that as I acquire them, i start calling them literal names before I have time to think of an official name. and they stick too well. -_- But this doggy cannot stay being called "Doggy". Besides, my sisters will smack me. ^^;
Surprisingly, my whole family seems to have taken interest in the dog. I expected my mom and dad to ignore it at most and freak out if it wet or munched on anything, but on the contrary, they like the doggy so much they actually carry it. It's like a new baby in the house. Hehe... Apparently, my mom is allergic to dog fur, which is why she always says no quite angrily to earlier doggy-acquisition proposals. But this doggy has so little fur, it feels like its wrapped in velvet carpet that can't cause anyone allergies. ^^; Lucky. Even our household helps (and driver) like the little thing. ^^; They even have their own name for it (Kwing-Kwing) hence my sisters are more at a rush to think of a nickname, in case that name sticks, if not just "doggy".
Moving on... I better load my multiply every now and then. it feels so abandoned. ^^
But then again, I have to study. I was surprised that Christmas will be next week already. That means school is just around the corner again! I barely have time to study and do everything that a vacation requires in order that it be called a real vacation (rest, blog, read a book (I was hoping to at least start either HP6 or Smoke and Mirrors), rest, eat a lot, go out with friends, rest, etc.)
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WAAAAH!! Today is a very very very special day. I got a phone call from someone I've been dying to talk to and who I really miss. TuT
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I want to change my lay-out but I don't have front page anymore, and I know as much html as a stuffed animal. -_- no hope.
anyway... hope to blog again soon!
Must post
3:50 PM
December 07, 2006
Hehe... I realized that I had to post a new entry cause my past entries have been swept through with waves of tiredness, crankiness, and what not. I guess I just was in a bad state of unpleasant-ness, or whatever, hence the psycho outflow. Plus, I've been going on and on too much about things that shouldn't really be complained about in a blog. Sort of. Blogging is strange in that it's an outlet of your thoughts and emotions, and yet you can't really say or reveal anything directly, cause everyone reads the same thing. -_-
So on to more mundane stuff.
I asked my mom if I could drive home today. From the look on her face, it was obvious that she didn't trust my driving. But my dad has assured me that I'll probably be able to drive next year. (In truth, they just want us to drive for the family in our next trip to the province, I can feel it and they've told me so in the past. XD) No matter. At least my driver's license and practice driving won't go entirely to rot. Also, I asked the theoretical question about a potential inevitability: "What would happen if I hit something, like another car or jeep or whatever?" - as what happened to vigile lately. I don't usually bring money with me, and in the event that someone asks me for money, I wouldn't have an ATM or anything to run to. Then my dad said, ever so nicely: "You should call us up if that happens. Although you'll probably start crying before that." -_- Ehem. Depends on how bad the situation. -_- If I totally wreck the car or run over someone accidentally, I will for sure end up crying in panic. Oh well. Time will tell. My dad says I'm not mature enough in that sense. :(
I think we might finally get a dog. 0_0 Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine this day would come. 0_0 Apparently, the requisites in this house for that decision to be passed is the go signal from EVERY member of the family. Unfortunately, my parents aren't animal lovers, and my mom has a bad allergy to dog fur. u_u Bernice and I have different tastes in dogs, and Bianca never shows favor to the idea. But finally, we were able to agree on something. Yes!
I attended BACBACAN 2 last wed. It felt embarrassing to have to face the JPIAns in a green shirt. *sigh* This is the hardship I have to face every single bacbacan, rnr, whatever event in BA. Oh well, at least I can claim that I'm not an officer there. ^^; But anyway, CE rocked the cheer dance competition. Or at least that's what I feel. we have yet to really find out. ;) Still, its cool. :)
Reviewed previous post
9:12 PM
December 05, 2006
As the title states, I read back what I wrote in my last entry and thought, "
Ang gulo ko naman mag-isip." Sorry. I didn't realize that my thought patterns were flowing out ever so incoherently. ANd if i do it again right now, you'll have to forgive me, cause I'm still sooo tired. X_x
I commute to and from school at times (today being one of them) and this morning I had to withstand a 2-minute modified handstand (imagine the pushup stance except your body is facing the right and only the left arm is down on the floor supporting your weight, with your right hand placed under your chin and both feet down on the floor). Our pass or fail preliminary archery exam depended on my being able to hold that wretched position for two whole minutes. The exam is next tues, but my prof said that if we could hold it for 2 min today, we pass the exam, and if we don't, we can take the real exam on tues. A no risk trial. But, I mean, come on. If I can't do it today, what are the chances that I can do it next tues? So I really pushed myself. X_x I thought i was gonna die. But my grades depended on it. Thankfully, I passed it today! Yeah! So proud!! This guy who was an ex-applicant of RPT wasn't able to do it. >:) That's the difference in our willpower, and why I'm a member and he isn't, despite the fact that I'm a loser on the inside, and he drops down and does push-ups for no reason at all (for show maybe?). Hehe.. *competitive* Besides, it would have been embarrassing if I couldn't do it and he knew I was a member. Don't take this against me! I'm just pretty defensive, and I felt (unreasonably, perhaps) that I would let the team down if I didn't perform better than this ex-applicant.
Moving on, I found a little nest of chocolates in the freezer! Wheee! Will this lift my mood or make me even more moody? I don't know. I'll ask kimmy. :) Whheee!!
Excuse me, again, for being so weird. Sig said I was freaking her out a while ago. ^^; Sorry. But I haven't had much rest lately, considering I'm commuting to and from school more often lately, and I'm in school from 9am-7pm half the week.
Tired
10:25 PM
December 04, 2006
I don't know why, but the dark circles under my eyes have become literally that. DARK. Really really dark. It's actually starting to turn into a slight shade of gray, which scared me when I first got to look at myself in the mirror. I look like a zombie or a very sick person. Tsk... And considering we just had a long weekend (5 days for the UP people) it's surprising that I came out of the short break with no homework, no progress in my assigned readings, and drained of all energy. Tomorrow, afternoon classes (1-4:30pm) are suspended for the convocation of the new student regent (?) and I think i'll take the time sleeping. Except I have classes before and after the cut-off hours. Baah! So i have to go to school at 10-11, then wait the rest of the long day for my 5:30-7 class. I really intend to go home. If i don't I'll probably drop dead with fatigue.
But if that were the case, then what the hell am I doing blogging right now? Well, before commuting home, I attended a meeting that required a dishing out of "juicy secrets" from the people in attendance. Knowing my life, I barely had anything to say. Except, I may have realized something.
Also, I'm beginning to notice more acutely a negative change in myself. I definitely practice less tact lately, if I don't feel like giving allowances, I won't. And I'll say it outright. I'm also more straightforward about the mean truths I come across. Plus I'm less cheery lately (although it could be that i'm just tired lately). And it's making me a really mean and cranky person. I think I can trace the origins of such changes to several things, one of the primary ones being that I'm not getting along very well with someone. And the aggression i feel towards this person is chanelling itself everywhere. 0_o And this person feels it I think. (I'll be so relieved when this sem is over. Orgs are hell sometimes.) The other factors could be my lack of sleep, stress, and the fact that I hang out too much with a person who is so easily teased. ~_~ I'm becoming evil. Tsk tsk... On top of it all, I recently developed a fondness for instrumental music. (Cause I downloaded the FFvii, KareKano and Suikoden Piano Collections recently.) Unfortunately, the nice ones are sad songs, and listening to them might probably contribute to my feeling down. ^^; Oh, and my house is being painted. The fumes must be getting into my head. X_x And I'm WAAAY delayed in schoolwork. -_-
I said my negative emotions may have been caused (in part) by my tiredness. But then again, it's possible that the reason why I'm so tired is that negative emotions are really draining. I'm really not sure if i'm getting crankier because I'm tired or more tired cause I'm getting aggravated by things. Whatever, it isn't pleasant. -_-
I'm reading a book right now, it's pretty intesting. A mystery in the 1800s involving an heirloom hidden in an old house supposedly haunted by old spirits. And the lead character is a lady scholar who is blamed for witchcraft. Except I can only read it when I have free time, which is not very often. I hope i can enjoy it this Christmas.
If i were put in a case where one person expects me to keep hold of a relationship or attachment, while that other person dallies around and expects me to do all the hanging on, whatever, don't expect much from me. If the other person seems to have stopped making an effort, I'm not likely to take that very well. Especially since I'm getting meaner lately. -_- Bleh..
I need to rest. Haaay... I'm beggining to look like L. Hehe..
