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Black is a good color
8:59 PM September 01, 2007

DO NOT READ IF YOU AREN'T IN THE MOOD TO READ THE RANTINGS OF A PISSED OFF AND SELF-PROCLAIMED-DEPRESSED PERSON!

As predicted, I've been feeling a little down lately. Again, I don't know exactly why, but there are so many little reasons I can think of that COULD say why. Anyhow, sometimes, in the midst of one of my darker moods, I suddenly feel like blogging. And then I feel how appropriate black is for my blog. Although sometimes, when I particularly dark mood settles over me, I kind of feel like I want it darker. Though I can't see how. -_- But of course I can rarely get my hands on our computer since my sister keeps hogging it all night.

But anyway, people are really getting ready to graduate. I heard from Bong and Rachel that they had their grad pics taken already, and it saddened me a bit. Then Bong and I were talking and we remembered our old plan as sophomores to repeat the weekly lunch out thing, something that has and (i expect) will never happen. Long gone times. u_u

I often find myself thinking, "...and who would have thought that would be the last time..". Like the time when the Powerpuff sat in the sunken after our Stat exam(?) waiting for CE's talent night, just talking till the sun had set, though I don't remember what we talked about anymore. We promised ourselves to do it again when our acads were no longer so tight. Then that batch anniversary with RPT '04. Who'd have thought it would be our last time together as a complete batch? I don't think we even have a picture with all of us in it. Now my buddy has gone abroad, so has another batchmate, while the others have graduated and are too busy with work to coordinate schedules. How fitting that we had our last dinner together in *that* special place.

Thinking such things now makes me wonder things that make it all worse, like how this year could be the last Christmas of the Kada together, how a lot of my college friends are about to graduate, etc. T_T

I don't think I'm as cheery as I was in high school, although at times I still am. That's age catching up with me I guess. People around me are growing older, or getting more mature, and moving forward, and I'm inevitably just here, where I still am, left behind to watch your backs move further away.

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And then there's the stress of school work to add cherries on top of my misery. Every Wednesday or Monday morning, if it isn't an exam (which I'll be having at least once every week till the end of this semester), it's a make-up class or a seminar I have to attend. Hurrah.

Last week I had three exams, and by the time I was preparing for the third, I was pretty tired and discouraged and urgh. I think I might be temporarily burning out. @_@ And then, the morning before the third exam, my earphones snapped into two cause it got caught between the chairs of the Pajero. I know it's seems like a little thing, but it got me depressed enough that I wasn't able to finish reading the last chapter of my book for the exam. Yes, shallow. I know. But then again, I'm used to studying with my music.

Then the teacher of one of my hardest subjects decided to schedule our next exam to the day after EA. Crap. EA, as some of you might know already, is the event I've been helping to organize all sem. It's a street dance party, etc, which usually lasts till the wee hours of the morning. And traditionally, I usually hang out with some CE friends afterwards. Considering it's the last EA of most of my CE friends, I'm a bit disappointed with the exam's crappy timing. -_-

Haaay~ Forgive my rantings about my life right now. I think I just lack sleep and have been letting the gloomy weather get to me too much. I intend to start watching a series or to read a good book soon (if I find one), which will hopefully help lift my mood. @_@

come fly ~ gen

gen ok lang yan *huggles*

siguro ganun nga talaga.... pero dito lang naman ako :p

and minsan feeling ko hindi pa talaga ako nag mamature lol *huggles* at di ko pa feel na 20 ako lol

*huggles* labshoo gen!:D

~ Anonymous | September 02, 2007 9:47 PM

*huggles kimmy* salamat kimmy! lashoo too! XD

~ Gen | September 04, 2007 12:03 AM